Stocking: Welcoming_Disaster || Lena (not Lena)

[stevetony_elf]

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Username: Welcoming_Disaster/ Lena (not Lena)#4743 on Discord.
AO3 Username: Welcoming_Disaster
Comics Steve/Tony: 616! Ults! 1872! Multiversal collision! I love them all.
Other Fandoms/Ships/Characters: Good Omens (A/C), The Good Place (Eleanor/Tahani), Umbrella Academy. Clint/Nat, Clint/Bucky, Carol/Wanda, Carol/Jess. Carol in general. Clint in general. Wanda in general.
Likes: Fun and unusual situations. Dimension hopping and time travel. Steve's time during the war. Outsider point of view. Teamfic and friendship. Soulmates, reincarnation, etc, especially in well-explored or realistic worlds. Fusions. Genderswaps; explorations of gender and sexuality. Banter. Angst with a happy ending, or angst where good things still happen. Fluff with notes of bittersweet underneath. Places where mundanity meets the superhero world. Early canon and identity porn. Steve centric fic. High aesthetic concepts. Kidnapping. Magic (truth spells etc). Extremis!Tony.
Dislikes: a/b/o, arranged marriage, mundane AUs, non-canonical dark!characters, completely unequal relationships, underage. I like imperfect endings, but I don't like hopeless ones; I'd prefer to be able to imagine that things could get better eventually. Fluff that's overwhelmingly nothing but sweet (ie, characters feel nothing but love for each other and make many declarations of this fact).
Non-fandom related requests/anything else?: Recs! I'd love recs for lighter funnier works in the Good Omens fandom especially. Vegetarian recipes. Your favorite song of the year. I've love recommendations for lesbian books/movies specifically, and for historical novels in general.

Comments

[resurrectedhippo]

Hi Lena, I offer you some stevetony angst, post-brain delete. I hope you enjoy this Steve POV drabble!

“Were we lovers?” Tony asks.

“I’m not sure I’d call us that.” Steve pauses, scrubbing a hand through his hair. He wants to pinch the bridge of his nose, but once, Tony teased him that it’s impolite and unbecoming for a man of his ranking to do so. Steve does it anyway, pinches at the top, right at his glabella.

Tony doesn’t remember. He doesn’t remember anything.

“No,” Steve finally responds, “not lovers, I don’t think we knew what being lovers meant.” He pauses, the words taste bitter on his tongue. “Friends, Tony. We were friends. Are friends.”

Steve wants to say, why lovers, why would you think lovers, why would you think that, out of all things, after everything else.

“Huh.” Tony tilts his head, shakes it, like he used to do. “Alright then.”

This isn’t his Tony. This Tony isn’t tainted by the burden of the memory of Steve looming over him, ready to kill him. He doesn’t remember, Finish it, or Was it worth it? Or Steve screaming bloody murder while stuck in a cell. He doesn’t remember meeting in the Mansion and the handshake that turned into—

Maybe this is better.

[welcoming_disaster]

Well!! This was a gut punch in the best way. "We didn't know what being lovers was" was a line that hit me particularly hard, and the emotion of the last paragraph -- what does being Steve's Tony mean?-- is really really emotionally effective. Thank you so much for this wonderful little piece, Hippo!!